I couldn’t stand the pain in my left arm, I started crying in 6th period ): And then it got worse in 7th D; And then it just kept getting worse and worse and worseeeee, and then my legs started to get that sharp, painful feeling and I needed to hold on to someone when I walked up/down the stairs xP Blah, I felt like I could’ve fallen asleep any second cause I was THAT tired. IDK what happened, since I slept nearly 8 hours and drank some caffeine before school. Hm, and was a little light-headed throughout the day, you knoww? And then Liz was being sad again! Dx Noooo! I felt so horrible, I couldn’t help her but tell her that Shawn just needed some space when in reality, I think he’s getting tired of her… Just a bit. But idk, see? I realized that I should just quit. I don’t need it, neither do you and it’s just… UGH; It hurts a lot but wtf! I can’t do shit about it and I don’t wanna tell anyone what’s wrong cause they might tell on a teacher or some shit and I’ll get to the ER again =_= I feel like shhhhhxt today. It’s boo shat. I feel like I got slapped across the face :/ Blah. Well Imma take my anger/frustration out on someone… Oh hey, Michelle just logged on. Okay, talk to ya laterrr~
Oh hey -_- I’m hella tired and I woke up, walked to the bathroom for a shower, and almost fell asleep standing up! D: Wahh, sad. >.< Ergh, I feel so light-headed right now. This is crap. I wanna see the doctor today. Not feeling good :/ blahblahblahblah! Imma moose o.- Haha. Well lots of projects due today, I let Stephanie handle the science project…… LOL. I feel bad now. Maybe I’ll drink some tea before school today xD Ya, goodbye Tumblr.
I am procrastinating. I need to do my homework. I need to check tumblr. I need to check myspace. I need to check facebook. I need to play this game. I need to check out that new video. I need to look for music on Youtube.
I need to do my homework. I am procrastinating. Blah. Distractions will kill me, one day.
Tu es mi amigo mejor. Not really, but yeah, you get it. I will miss you like a cake on a b-day ): Don’t move, go to BCHS with me, and let’s splash in puddles and eat skittles! :D I wanna see your chubby face, curly hair, and hear your gay-sounding voice! If you moved, I’d lose that and I’d have no reason to scream “GOLDEN!” anymore ): If you moved, I can’t see myself hanging out with any little 7th grader afterschool no more! D:< Gah, you mean kid! Don’t go to San Jose or I’ll track you down and store you in my closet(:
*Random kids screaming at eachother* Rishi: Hey hey, aight? Calm down, aight. Meditate, booshka… Booshka. Mad 7th grader: Yeah yeah go booshka yo ass over there! Me&Heather: *laughing so hard we cry* Rishi: -_-
Don’t get it wrong, I love afterschool. But this shit was so funny, cause Rishi was such a dork! And these 7th graders sure know how to yell, scream, and argue -_- Oh well, fun either way.
“You grew wings because a whale didn’t teach you how to swim. You hopped further than a bunni because you’re better than that.” -Elizabeth Reyes, supergirlfriend<3111009&LIMGF/turtle F O R E V E R.
Things get so hard to be this little kangaroo. I feel like I can’t hop any further, I feel like I can’t fly any higher. I feel that I’m under the ocean. I feel that the bunni is hopping so far away, out of sight. But the saying “Out of sight, out of mind” is just BULLSHIT. I can’t see this amazing creature swim or hop. I’m in the dark. Nothing helps, nothing works. Only little flashlights visit me and it hardly ever satisfies my need for the sunshine. I am guilty of using people. I am guilty for ever letting myself fall this hard. It’s too late, I’m in pitch black UNDERGROUND. But I have these wings. I have the energy to hop far and wide. I just don’t know how. I lost all my reason way back. I just have to gain it back. I have to hop far, but always look back. I have to fly high, and teach myself how to swim. I am better than this. But I know it will take some time.
I like watching dramas and love listening to Korean songs. But most importantly… The biggest confession I have… Is that Korean guys are dead sexy and I’m easily attracted. LMFAOO Dammit this is what happens when your bored.(: moreover… Anyone agree?(; you really can’t deny it…o.o
OMG SHUT UP JORDAN XD You know I’d reblog this ! D: *prays for sexy Korean guy in Highschool*
ARGH! It all started with the stupid “Dry Skin” home made facial mask me and Liz decided to try out ._. (And btw, my face feels sexy<3) So now I’ve been inspired to actually try to be healthy… *gulp!* O_O
It goes like this:
Monday: Scrub/Green Tea/Sit ups
Wednesday: Green Tea
Thursday: Green Tea/Sit ups
Friday: Hot chocolate/Push ups
Saturday: Egg mask
Sunday: Egg mask/Sit ups
Well that’s my schedule. Let’s hope I follow through… Now time to do some sit ups :P
You said the sweetest of things. You shared your secrets with me. You gave me hugs when I felt bad. You punished me when I was saying “I’m not that great.” You gave me a new confidence I never thought I had. You gave me a warmth that no one could touch. You reminded me of a flirty-prick type from those animes. You actually were a really nice guy who just has a lot of charm. You knew I wasn’t the best. You accepted me the way I was anyways. You understood me. You gave me hope. You told me the words I didn’t want to hear. You made me understand why I needed to hear them. You comforted me. You let me fill my desires. You are my friend. You can be called “not real.” You made me happy. Thank you.
I’m texting, lol. Woke up at around 8:30 and took a long shower and then the water turned cold :( But whatever, I sat in the bathroom for like an hour texting and listening to music xD And then I decided to get up and get ready, finally. I was drying my hair, getting dressed, blah blah blah… Yeah. I look back at my texts and realized I fell asleep on a few people. I’m sorry! And some people are butt hurt now >.< Ugh; Blah. Well now I decided to work on reading The Farthest Shore this week and try to finish it and get the 10 points I need for AR. Wish me luck, lol.
I take his side. He gives me so much to work on and you? You give me nothing to take your side for. He tells me things that I can really relate to, and he’s really smart not to start shit cause I know I would. I wouldn’t just stfu, I’d start something. Wtf is with you? You tell me this shit and avoiding everything and you two were together from the start and now you tell me that it’s over? Really? All that for nothing? What’s going to happen now, huh? I feel so bad for him, but he seems happy enough; key word: seems. But idk, maybe it’s better this way..? You might think I’m being bitchy since I haven’t known ‘em for long. But that’s not true. Just cause I known you longer doesn’t mean shit, I feel for him. And here you go, yell at me. I try to cope, but I feel mad at you. Whatever; This isn’t my business.
That somehow, I keep pushing you away even though you’re coming back into my life? Is it wrong to say “It’s not the same, please stop…” or is it just mean? I feel so bad about it, I feel like I’m using you. Please stop, you’re hurting me. You and your stupid words, they affect me each and everyday. Every night. Every time I flip open my phone. Why is the world so wrong? I don’t like it, the way that you make me feel. I feel special, but I love the feeling, not you. And it’s so wrong, so so wrong… I’m not in love with you anymore, I think you should realize that. You’re only a friend. I think you have the best hugs in the world, but it doesn’t mean that I really like you. You hug tight, meaningfully, and I really like it. But not you. You are amazingly sexy, but it’s not you that I really want. Even though I want to indulge myself in your amazing hugs, it’s not you. I’m sorry, but it’s not the right time. What’s wrong with me? You treat me like I’m number one, you’re the sweetest, you understand, and you care. But why do I keep you at a distance? Because you aren’t the one. I don’t need this. But when you say “I love you” and I say it back, it’s not the same. I do love you, but it’s only as a bestfriend/brother. You are a friend. Accept it, please. I’m in love with the feeling you give me, not you. And so, I feel really really horrible cause I just don’t feel right…
Went to rehearsals today . O M F G ! I’m so mad at myself, at the seventh graders, at Mr.Gayle, lol. I actually LOST a singing audition. LOST IT. O M F G . You could hella tell I was holding back, and that sevie was putting in her all . P S HHH , don’t get cocky, mama. I can beat you out. I swear , even if it means losing my voice again -.-” I will eat ginger, suck it, and drink gingerale. Gay . :P I WILL NOT LOSE AT SOMETHING I AM GOOD AT! NO MATTER WHAT! D;