I’ve noticed that I’ve gotten close to so many people and gotten farther away from so many others that were once the most important people in my life.
I’m a mess at the moment.
I can’t just leave one for the other and vice versa, but it feels like they are tugging on both my arms, telling me to choose between them. What I imagine is happy is when I don’t have to care about drama and just worry about the simple things, like homework and missing a new episode on a show. Why can’t we go back?
Back to the days where everyone sat in a big circle and not separated into little groups, talking smack about the others. Where we used to all laugh, smile, and cry about the same things. Where no one was left out, where no one had to feel like they were alone or torn between two friends.
Back to when no one was fighting, crying, and starting drama because of the stupid things that should’ve been easy to work out by a simple “I’m sorry” and a hug.
I know somewhere, deep inside of all of us, we all want to be back into that one group that everyone at school recognized as “AI.” But no one seems to be putting in the effort to put the pieces back together.
Come on guys, I know we all want our family back, so why can’t we just try to fix this together?
To everything that we had. All of the cherished memories. The love, laughs, and tears of joy. Put aside all of the negative things and relive the good times we all had. Things change, but this will last forever. We’re a family. Ohana means family Family means no one gets left behind, or forgotten. We all have our bad times. But sooner or later they will be set aside and put to rest. The days that we are living in now, will never come back. So please, lets just stop. Be what we used to be. And be happy. I don’t want to look back at bad memories when I’m older. All of us are friends for a reason. Something brought us all together. I know, we’re young, and things can change, people change. But no matter what, Never forget about the family that we made and the family that will last forever. So this one goes out to My Family that I will always love.
I don’t wanna date you, I’m not that interested in talking/texting you, I don’t need you to bring up the past ‘cause that sh/t is LONG GONE, and I really wish you’d just listen to my friend and leave us all alone.
Not that I’m trying to get at it, but shit man. My 8th grader best friend is single and he’s really sad about it. They lasted for awhile and that kind of attachment could kill. I feel for him because she was his girlfriend, you know? I know the feeling of being thrown away. I know the feeling of being broken up. It’s horrible, yeah. You just want pity and love and you just want to be happy and back into their arms. But that’s not the answer, certainly not in this case. I hope he’ll get back on his feet soon, because he’s a good boy and he deserves some happiness, too.
Maybe I’m taking it the wrong way. Just because a certain thing happened at a certain time after a certain something does not mean it’s connected. I’m probably over thinking it. I’m most likely over-analyzing things. Ugh, so confusing.
Being in highschool, surrounded by the people that were part of my childhood but for some reason didn’t stay. It was really good, I got to see so many people that I miss! They all look different and I feel like I’m the only one who didn’t change at all. For instance, Jaren Fifield. That boy, I missed him so much! He grew out his hair and he’s in a band and has been playing the guitar for almost two years. So many things that I missed out that I want to catch up on. I love re-meeting old friends.
You tell her “That should be me” but your coming to me and always asking “Did I make you smile?”
I used to like you. Find the difference between now and then. Find someone to make you happy at your own school. I’m doing this for your own sake, because I do care about you but not in the way that you think.
I’m so uncomfortable with you just feeling up on me, picking me up, and shit when you barely know me. Especially because I know that I have a boyfriend that I have strong feelings for. You’re a little too much for me. I don’t like it when you try to take my things and wrap your arms around me like I’m yours. I’m not yours, I’m Ryan’s and I prefer to keep it that way.