I’m afraid to dream again and forget just how wonderous it was. I’m afraid of closing my eyes and seeing not a dream, but me in the middle of a nightmare. Somewhere in between, my world is closing in me while I sleep. I’m afraid. I lose track of reality, my expectations become too high. I lose track of who I am, what I am here for and I aim for things that can only satisfy me material-wise. What is happiness in dreams when it only exists in your sleep?
Just don’t. If you liked her in the first place and truly meant it, why are you leaving her? So what if you guys weren’t together, but that doesn’t mean you could just drop her whenever you wanted while she still has feelings. & when she knows that you’re leaving her, she’s gonna be hurt. She’s gonna ask “why did he leave”, “did i do something wrong”, “i guess it didn’t work out”. Don’t lead her on, or else she’ll end up hurt in the end.
Whether it be a family member, a friend or someone you once knew but drifted from.
It’s hard to accept that they were in your life at one point and now, they’re gone. It’s hard to regret all the things you wish you could’ve done or have done while that person was still here. It’s hard to understand just why it had to be them. It’s hard to deal with having that emptiness. It’s hard to not want them back with you. It’s hard to say good-bye.
I didn’t intentionally do it but it just kinda happened. I lost communication with certain friends, and I became more independent. I’m just trying to look out for myself now. Trying to not get attached to certain people because it might hurt me in the future. Sure life’s about taking risks but theres also a point in life where you get tired of getting hurt. Tired of trying. Just tired of everything. I’m just trying to live life happily.
"His smile was too beautiful for Earth, so God took him to heaven."
Shamar’s memorial service was today. So many teary-eyed faces, some stained with tears. When we all let go of the balloons, they lit the sky and let me tell you, it was perfect. I got to hug his mother and I told her "His smile was too beautiful for Earth, so God took him to heaven." and she replied with "I know. That’s why he’s my angel child."
Shamar’s family was so strong, his brother did not cry once, but told us "Please try to hold your tears in. Don’t be selfish and want to bring him back. He’s in a better place now."
Even if you are my mom’s boyfriend, I will not tolerate you talking about them like that. Even if you are three times older than I am, I still will not tolerate you talking about them like that. Do not try using them as a “lesson” for me. Do not try to be smart and stereotype them. I don’t care if you are an authority figure, do not speak about Shamar or Amanda like that.
You are a fucking creep if you save peoples pictures and make fake accounts pretending it’s you. Fucking creeps man, I swear.
^^ It’s those people that just piss me the fuck off. Excuse my language, but someone caused so much unnecessary drama by faking to be someone that isn’t. Even. Real. And used someone else’s pictures, most likely without permission. They tried to play it off like it was just a joke, well it’s not. You better be glad that your bitch ass moved schools. If you’re really that judgmental, you’d probably think that I’m just some stupid freshman that cusses waaay too much, but if you understood the things that happened, how it happened, why, the aftermath, etc, you would find it almost necessary to cuss while talking about the topic.